Confessions Of a Prima Enthusiast.

Whoooahhh!!

2012-02-08T18:46:00.002Z

Just noticed, I last posted on this blog a year ago!! So much has happened crazy stuff at home and Illness with pregnancy kept me away from so much and life really!!

I will do a round up post at some point but for now, I updated the DT/Challenge section

Welcome Baby Cuz! .....

2011-02-07T02:43:00.003Z

.... And congrats Big Cuz

Sooo chuffed to have a new baby in the extended family.My Big cuz had a baby boy! He came early but is strong and healthy, Thank God for a safe delivery.
My Big Cuz is such a cute Daddy LOL. His wife is already a big part of the family and loved by us all - Love you TanTan xoxo

Mummy wanted a handmade card to bring to the hospital so I quickly made one the evening and the next morning we pooled our monies together and had a small shopping spree picking cute baby clothes and blankets... oh it was so fun looking at all the yummie baby bitz, but when did baby clothes get so expensive??

Here's the card, simple in style as usual.

Catching up..

2011-01-07T04:32:00.008Z

... Hmmm story of my life... playing catch up.... AGAIN!! Here's a few Christmas goodie catchups....(please excuse grainy drainy photo's... I so need to put my picture software on my Lappy)

Boys and I made Mince BakewellPies - Inspired by costco, motivated by Pink whisk... Boys and Adj loooOved them.... ok I did too, have some mincemeat left so will have fun with boys at weekend.

Stocking Fillers for Mummy, Love the Pink/blue/white colourway...oooo
{Dies -PTI, Sizzix; - card - SU, DCWV; Felt Embelies - American Craft; Stickles; papers, gems, felt & ribbon- mixed stash}

Stocking Filler for Wkins, so fun making the box adhoc but it was a little flimsy.
{Die- Sizzix; Punch - Martha St; Card - SU; Brad - Papermania; paper, ribbon - mixed stash}

candieee Girl.......

2011-01-07T03:53:00.003Z

You are my world..... lololol

SOoooooo I just spotted some yummie candy HERE!!!

You'll go for the candy but stay for the Yummie projects for sure

Merry Christmas!!!

2010-12-25T17:09:00.003Z

Have a great Day everyone. Hope the season is enjoyable for all. Thinking about the reason of the season makes me smile from ear to ear!!

Joy To The World, The Lord Is come.....

card recipe;

papermania and Stampin up {card}. DCWV {paper}. sizzix and PTI {dies}. Stickles. own supplies {felt and button}

Last couple of days!

2010-11-09T01:19:00.003Z

Last couple of days in the US!!

Have had a fantastic time here in the States.

Here's a couple of pics of my Michaels haul

Crafting goodies:

Cake making stuff:

Ahem... and the extra bag I had to buy to carry the extra goodies in, I got the boys and Adj small gifts too which needed extra space.

WTW - Tootin About Treat and Gift Holders

2010-09-27T23:18:00.008+01:00

Fabby Treat Holder challenge. Loved the example and will making some soon but as I had some cookies to package up I made my Treat Holder bigger.

Used one of my fave anya stamps and coloured the hair using a technique from colour me copic,

I seem to have lost one of my circle nestie so had to use a smaller one which made the scallop frame too big.... hunph bet the nestie is hiding with my extended bigshot plate AND my gypsy to cricut lead BAHHHHH!!!!

As an aside, I love love LOVE copics but a lot of mine dried out and many are on their way out, with limited cash, earlier in the year I thought I'd try promarkers, now I had tried them in a shop but they didn't blend in to each other..... so I thought but I realised months later that I hadn't waited till the ink dried to see the finished results.... how silly did I feel??? very haaaaaaa

Can't believe all the deals I passed up at craft shows ahemmm.

Anyhoooo.... as I was saying, earlier in the year the promarker 5 sets were on a bargain offer and I thought "Why not try them??" so I did, now I love the results you get from them and have lots of colours but I still LOVE my copics... so I use them both.

I started to try different effects using both markers to compare.

Here's the "feathered hair" look:

copic on bigger piece, promarker on smaller. I must say, the copic "skin" colours are nicer than promarkers, I find PM's make skin look dull.

Daring Bakers!

2010-09-27T16:17:00.005+01:00

The September 2010 Daring Bakers’ challenge was hosted by Mandy of “What the Fruitcake?!” Mandy challenged everyone to make Decorated Sugar Cookies based on recipes from Peggy Porschen and The Joy of Baking.

I am sooooo happy I got to play this month, I have been MIA form the DB challenges because of my silly ankles, I was so happy to see sugar cookies are Septembers challenge!!

So erm..... It didn't go too well.. Firstly we are super strapped for cash this month and have no eggs in the house so I used one of the egg free recipes for the cookies and my own egg free recipe for the icing, No butter so used Margarine instead, no lemon juice so left it out. I also added a little marge to the icing because I didn't want the icing to set rock hard as the kiddies like softer icing.

I decided to make cookies at late o'clock... after 1am, and was tired - mistake number 1 -

I dont have an electric mixer so decided to warm butter... in the microwave... forgot it in there and it melted.... I decided to use the melted butter as it was the last bit... without letting it harden - mistake number 2-

Added the other ingredients but of course the butter made the dough toooo wet as it was liquid arrrggghhh!!! LOADS more flour needed I had already added almond essence I decided to add ground almonds to the mixture and stop it becoming tasteless with too much flour, also had to use more sugar - saved!! -

erm decided to work on some other projects while they were in oven.... forgot to set timer - mistake number 258 heee -.... yep over baked cookies... gahhhh!!! put second batch in oven.....

sooooo.... time to ice..... couldn't go wrong?? er.... yes it could, mixed red and yellow colouring to make orange.... more like salmon... add more yellow.... nice colour but more sorbet that bright.... decide I like the colour anyway.

Right.. time to ice, where's my piping stuff???!!! arrgghhhhhh ok, use greaseproof paper and roll... overfilled.... tired brain = shakey hands and UGLY iced cookies ugh!! Can't even tell they're pumpkin shaped can ya LOLOLOL

almost didn't upload them but here they are, I must say they do taste delish and kiddies certainly love them so I'm happy on that count :o) :

{{bah!! just noticed I forgot to turn my daylight lamp on before taking photo...... sorry about dark picture}}

Almond Sugar Cookies,

used pumpkins as my september theme as september means begining of autumn and change of seasonal produce, pumpkins defo mean that to me... reminds me of harvest time at school and church as a young girl lol

Happy Anniversary TGF!!

2010-08-02T01:00:00.008+01:00

Hoping this post works as am using scheduling for the first time.

A BIG Happy Anniversary to TGF.

Here's my Teacher cards and chocs for the Blog Hop, The 2 middle boys chose the teachers they wanted cards for, simple designs for quick teacher 'Thanks'

Please excuse the poor photos as I cant get to remove the noise etc... I will try to replace with better pics later. Thanks for looking, I cant wait to Hop along and have a look at every one elses... Last time I found some great blogs which I submitted to in Bloglines/ followed.

I realised that the last few posts down are from last year's Blog Hop!! I cannot believe that I posted so little the last year..... I really did melt down there, Glad to be back Tho.

*Cardstock - Stampin Up, DCWV

Papers - Stampin Up, DCWV,

Flowers - American Craft, Prima, Die cuts

Bling - Papermania, kaisacraft(sp), pound shop(lol)

Pins, buttons, ribbons from stash pile

stickers (on choc tags) - paperchase

Pens - Promarkers, Copics

The Master List for the Blog Hop is HERE!!!!

****EDITED****

I think the pictures aren't going on properly as they cant be clicked, and are small........ ugh!!!

*****EDITED again...... (am I the most ditzy blog hopper ever??)****

soooo... The pics are being odd, here's the individual pics hopefully they're bigger.

***yet another EDIT (rolls eyes)***

I only just this moment realised the boy stamp wasn't TCF, I put him in my TCF pack by mistakee.... so sorry!! I removed the individual card from this post.... ugh... I am such a hop novice.

School's Out!!

2010-07-24T04:52:00.004+01:00

Let the fun begin!!! LOL. The boys are so excited to be off! Jayz had his last day at his school ad will going to Juniours in Sept!! oooooo so exciting but oh where has the time gone? Kali was just going into the juniors!! Ugh!!! My babies are not babies anymore.... sigh!

Just seen the video "dodah" at the bottom is all messed up.... say due to some licensing issues the videos can't be played in this country... sooooo until I get around to changing or replacing no more vids!!

more blog candy

2010-05-19T22:32:00.002+01:00

Found more candy... so much lovely goodies.... go along HERE to see Debbie's Birthday Candy

blog candy finds

2010-05-07T02:50:00.004+01:00

just a couple of yummy blog candy i found while catching up on bloghopping:

create a critter cart I looooove this cart and it has to be my next get cart!

a PINK cuttlebug!!

Happy Valentines Day!!

2010-02-15T04:01:00.004Z

Here are the treats Adj got me. Such a lovey. He also cooked me a yummy meal and we cuddled up watching a few episodes of Life.

A Simple Card for Adj:

Stamp and Felt hearts- American crafts

A Card for Mummy:

Stamps - American crafts and Magnolia, Punch - Martha Stewart and Stampin up, Felt hearts - American crafts. Coloured with watercolour pencils and Copics.

I Hope everyone had a great day.

Design Team Call.

2010-01-13T03:26:00.003Z

Click to view

Newness!!

2010-01-13T03:22:00.002Z

Arrggggg!! Last year whizzed by at the end... soooooo mad and hectic but good too.

I had baaaad pc probs and stuff and an Animal Crossing "addiction" hmmmm any one got it and wanna wifi??

Gotta keep my Blog up to date more!

Dress!!

2009-08-03T03:54:00.002+01:00

AARRRGggggg!! Just tracked my Bridesmaid dress!! it's in UK now waiting "clearence" whooohoooooo!!! cutting it fine, was thinking it may not get here in time whoooooo!!

must remember to set some funds aside for customs

Teacher cards ala Anya!!

2009-08-01T15:23:00.005+01:00

Soooo..... being me I left teacher cards late, had my eye on Teacher anya for a loooong time, trying to budget still (yeah not to thrifty) so had her on wish list but as I has quite a few cards thought I'd get her - justify... would have to buy 7 cards at £1-£1.50 I'd say so she paid for herself..... yep thats what I'll tell Adj if he asks LOL

sooooooo....... I called stampezzee panicing about delivery and the sweetie told me she'd post out next day and we had a laugh about leaving stuff til last minute. I was soo pleased I ordered her, she is lovely in stamp person and colours so well... oh and Superstar Anya jumped in my basket while I was there....justify?? erm... no I hid her... and the prima daisies too.. shhhh....

so late to post but here's the cards... simple style as usual

{card - bazzil and DCWV. PP - DCWV and scraps. flowers - Prima and local art shop. Bling}

HAPPY ANYAversary BLOG HOPPIN' BASH - {Part 2}

2009-08-01T14:35:00.000+01:00

Happy Birthday TGF!!!

Sooooo..... this card started of good and then stuff happened. LOL - where's my thick blue ribbon?? dont know lets use this thin one.... not so pretty.
Where is my Birthday Greetings stamp? in the sentiments box..... where's the sentiment box? erm at my mums house...... er.... Handwritten do?? er.... NO!! even less pretty.....

When I get the stamp from mums I'll redo the sentiment.... will also match the matt with the stamped image's matt colours

{card & stripped pp - DCWV . Ribbon - from Angels ribbon kit. Flowers - from local art shop}

HAPPY ANYAversary BLOG HOPPIN' BASH

2009-07-30T20:25:00.005+01:00

whoooohoooo

getting ready for the big bash!!

The greeting farm is having a Blog Hop bash on 1st August to celebrate their birthday!!

Cant wait, first time to do this kind of thing.

Hopefully it will cheer me up, My ankles are still giving me "Jip" had a horrid time at work last week, first day back had to leave and come home... pain and frustration all week then Saturday Pain and Pain plus some PAIN!!! BAHHHHH... took last few days off and will have to see Doc for advice etc.

Sooooooooo................ need a little cheer up.

Long Time!!!

2009-04-08T21:36:00.003+01:00

Oh my!! such a long time posting, so much gone on....

Poor kylo had his accident and surgery and that's trully overshadowed every area of our lives but I praise God that it was not as bad as it could have been and it was a small Op and he came through it brilliantly. I thank God for being there for me when I was weak then He is strong

I want to thank those who prayed, supported and were just there for us during that time and now the healing.

Oh and it was my Birthday this week!! Adj planned a surprise party for me!! can you believe it!! wow what a cutie!! It was fab thanks to all who came and how could you keep it from me and let me turn up with casual clothes and BAD hair??!! LOL

Love you my sweet Hubby xxx

2009-04-08T21:34:00.000+01:00

Thanks to the blog visitor who sent the lovely message about my music xxx

Hectic!!

2009-01-21T17:20:00.003Z

Arggggggg!! I need a break LOL,

Just a quick post with a headsup..... Faithscrappersuk have a DT call at the moment... hurry on over to see the notice/conditions!!

Happy World Card Making Day!!

2008-10-05T01:27:00.006+01:00

Hope you had/are having a lovely day!! Any cards made? I know some people are going to crops and I am soooo jealous LOLOL had to work today and don't think boss would have been too happy for me to be card making on the job haaaa.

Here's a simple Card using a lovey Hanglar stamp, aint she cute??!!

Will see if I get to do a few more cards before bed.

2008-10-05T01:25:00.001+01:00

A little catch up:

MIL had the brutes sentencing last month, he got 14 years and good riddance!! MIL is healing slowly, can't wait to see her again.

Kali made the Football t4eam at school1 Hoooozzzaaaahhhh!! I am mega chuffed for him, He tried out last year and was so disapointed and sad not to make it but he really has practiced and tried very hard and this year he made it! I really did think he'd do it and was so pleased when he came home and told me!! erm.... does that make me a soccer mum now?? LOLOLOL

humph!! bad blogger!!

2008-07-08T01:30:00.007+01:00

Bah!! cant keep up ... every time i say i must update... something else comes up and when i have a chance, I cant remember what I was meant to update with.

I seem to remember promising someone for some up to date piccies of the boys but cant remember who!! will do that soon. In the mean time here's some of the stuff I've been getting up to

Baking for the fam.

Baking and preparing treats for the carnival stall last month.

Going to Kylo's playdates:

finding yummie stash!!

Oh and entertaining our fabby friends last week(thanks for coming over J & M)!! Was abs fab.... had a long day cleaning and tidying... cooking and baking... was fun!
We all had a great night eating, talking and playing games. The kids (ours and theirs) had fun too.

2008-07-08T01:25:00.005+01:00

oh and some crafting too!! Keep forgetting to take piccies of the finished stuff before I give them away!! Here's a few i remembered;

card and gift bag for friends who just had a baby:
(used lovely baby bunny Tilda stamp, yummy Stamping Up)

Birthday card for Grandma well she's Adj's by birth but i've nabbed her!!
(used a lovely tilda stamp and my new dovercraft pinky papers and accessories)

Look... she put it up with her other cards... i was grinning from ear to ear

Thank you cards for a commision
(used laura ashley stamps)

Daring Bakers!!

2008-06-30T00:29:00.007+01:00

Found the brill Daring Bakers while flikr and blog hopping in may and just had to join!

June's Challenge, hosted by Kelly and Ben was a Danish Braid, what a challenge!! First time i made pastry and reading the instructions had me nervous!!
It was soooo much fun tho and i will deff make it again. Adj loved it and was so impressed... gotta admit I was impressed too.

made the yummy apple filling and what a treat!

look at the scrumminess of pastry and caramelised apple!!

Hmmmm.... how many WW points in a slice???

*edit* Forgot to add,
I used 1/2 the recipie and made one plait, changed small bit of dough recipie (orange juice as am allergic to citrus fruits esp oranges, used a little syrup and water for the liquid, no cardomon so used some permento instead - my spice of the month:) )used the apple filling but added extra spices.!*edit*
The pastry making has really given me the confidence to try new things which is one of the reasons I joined DB.... watch this space.

Thanks for the challenge hunnies!

Verdict!

2008-06-23T17:33:00.003+01:00

Trial was last week, what a sureal week it was too. Just getting back into the loop of things. Plus internet and phone was up the creek!!

Anyway.... It was a hard week for all. Listening to all the evidence... hearing all the details about that night Seeing the brute in the dock and hearing his lies and rubbish....

The Jury found him GUILTY of GBH with intent!! Whooohoooo!!!

sentencing will be in 4-6weeks and we will go to see how long the Judge decides.

Journalist who wrote article before the trial is in contempt of court as there was an order made and will have to face judge.... goes to show you cant just do what you want without regard for anyone else!!

So we are happy with the verdict. We can continue to get on with the healing and practical stuff without the worry/stress of trial looming.

I feel so odd tho, like it's over but it's not.....

I really had to rely on God last week and prayed so much.... He truly is able.
The defence lawyer tried to get the 3 counts dropped!! can you believe it???

Thanks again to all you who have supported me and our family (should that be my family and I??) throughout this terrible ordeal. I know you will continue to do so xxx

Magnolia ATC Swap!

2008-06-06T23:38:00.007+01:00

Bah!! cant keep up LOL Here's the Magnolia ATC's I did for the swap. I'll post the ones I got tomoz. Thanks Kath and all swappers in my group

Oh My!

2008-05-30T02:18:00.002+01:00

Been gone soooo long from blogging land.... busy busy busy!! Have been tidying and throwing away SOOO much junk.

Anyway... joined an Atc swap the them was yummie magnolia stamps.

Got to send of tomoz so will be a day past deadline (sorry kath!! and my group!)
here's a sneaky peak:

25th Challenges

2008-04-25T18:36:00.003+01:00

Yep tis I!! come out of the noblogging or crafting fog! ok so shimelle has started a new project.
Every 25th you take photos and scrap your day. I'm already behind but I'm gonna semi cheat and take photo's all day tomoz instead.....

that reminds me it's also rudolph day - a Christmas card challenge to make cards every 25th of the month so come Christmas you'll have lots of cards ready made......

Right off the PC for me and grab some crafting time.... Kali has something on over at club penguin so i really better get off the pc... miss my Laptop.

Booboo!

2008-04-03T16:34:00.005+01:00

still catching up.... look at my poor Kylo! I told him over and over to stop running about - what is it about boys not being able to keep still?? anyway, he didn't listen - surprise surprise - and this was the outcome... poor babes... ah well it's not hurting now and he took the plaster of days ago.

**Btw, that's milkshake round his mouth..... not dirt LOL

Catch up!!

2008-04-03T15:41:00.005+01:00

The days are whizzing by!!
here's a quick catch up:

My fabby swap from Dingle for the M/net Crafters Swap:

gorgeously girly swap from bex for the m/net Easter Swap!!

How scrummie are they??!!

Cyber Crop!!

2008-03-28T21:29:00.003Z

Lots to catch up with but first let me tell you that Faith Scrappers are having a Cyber Crop this weekend!!
The theme is Because He lives!!

come along and prolong your Easter celebrations!!

Here's two sneak peaks of the classes I put together!!

More International visitors!!

2008-03-25T13:50:00.003Z

Just noticed that I have some visitors from new places!! Hi to you visitors from Spain , Morocco, Peru and the Czech republic!! great to have you here. A big hi to all my visitors and love to the "regulars"

Easter Swap!!

2008-03-24T23:11:00.003Z

My lovely swappee Dingle is still waiting for her pressie!! I am such a rubishy swapper, everything went wrong and so she's still waiting, PO was shut on saturday so i couldnt even get it off to her for tuesday!! bah!!! I hate letting people down....and am worried that the choccy may not be nice now and it's all packed up!!

well anyway here's a sneaky peaky for you hun!!

ps, I wont open mine till you get yours, tis only fair xxx

felties!!

2008-03-24T21:16:00.005Z

got a new "buzz" and it's felties... well i dont know what they're really called but they're little thingies made out of felt. I was reading a craft mag and saw a felt chick just begging to be made, i first thought i couldn't do it cos i don't have a sewing machine but the mag raved about folksy hand stitching so i gave it a go and now i'm hooked!!

I made a few more and kylo saw them and asked for a car. Had to give it a try didn't I?! Not too bad hey?!

sneak peaks!!

2008-03-22T13:57:00.004Z

forgot to upload some pics of easter stuff and swaps!!

here's sneaks:

Happy Easter!!

2008-03-22T01:06:00.003Z

Hiya!!!

Just a quick Post to wish you all a very Happy Easter!!

The most important time in the Christian calendar!
What a fantastic thing to know that Christ Died for us.... and not only that but AROSE!!

Lotsa Goodies!!

2008-03-18T23:10:00.002Z

Yummy goodies made on Saturday!!

2008-03-18T23:08:00.000Z

And homemade pizza for dinner!! Kali was super impressed!! He's been going on about it since then, jayz and kylo both loved it too, even Adj was chuffed.
I didn't use yeast but the base was so light and yummy!! now.... why didn't I write the recipie as I went along??!!

another slice of humble pie.....

2008-03-15T02:15:00.003Z

Arrgghhh!! humble pie is being served once again tonight..... I just realised that I spelt confessions with one s when I changed the banner........ and it's been like that for AGES too!! HAAAAaaaaa gotta laff ay?!!

Blog Hopping!!

2008-03-15T00:26:00.003Z

Just been blog hopping and came across THIS fabby post. Over at Tcake's Blog. She makes the most gorge cards but these gifts are just yummmmm

Hmmmmmmm......

2008-03-14T23:13:00.002Z

After moaning to all and sundry that Magnolia had messed me around yet again and going on and on about how I wanted to order the new baby stamps but didn't want to chance it after they hadn't fulfilled my order........ Tonight, I sent the boys to bed and just as Jayz was going out he went to get his toy bag, basicly a power ranger bag that he puts all his "current playing with" toys what do I see??!! PURPLE rubber..... I grabbed the bag and burried in all the toys were my magnolia's!! They'd Obviously come and Jayz must have opened the package!!
So big sorry to magnolia... now where's my card....

quick post!!

2008-03-12T14:22:00.002Z

Hmmmm..... time has ran away from me again.... been trying to get things rolling with Kokolicious, got sooo many projects that I should have caught up with will get them done tonight.

On my Blog hop today I came across some yummy candy one had an extra prize if i link to it and get chosen so.... here's the fabby place

Catch up!!

2008-02-19T01:04:00.009Z

Whoooaaaa!! where's the time going?? Soooooo much gone by where to start??

ah yes... made some yummy shortbread valentine hearts:

Played with some Funky kit stamps; nellies:

(the blue one is for a challenge over at mumsnet crafters!!)

Duck from the yummy rachel range:

Love these stamps, stamped and coloured some of the others ready but cant find them.... humph

ooooo and here's a couple of "scripture cards" made with yummy magnolias (still obsessed with these)

Scripture reads - In all your ways acknowledge the Lord and He'll direct your paths.

**I think somethings up with my crystal glitter because it dries kinda frosty and not clear and sparkly like it used to!! I thought it may be the glue which was different to the one I used before so I tried a different one, thing is I cant remember which one I used in the first place but have 2 more to try. **

Mr Postman.......

2008-02-05T17:02:00.000Z

Yay!!! came down to postie goodies aplenty today!!

My nesties came from the Lovely Marcie!! Thanks hun xxx
My kit from CTM, gonna have a proper looksie and look at the DT ***projects.

Scrapbook etc, i completely forgot that it was due too!! was a ***great surprise
My images from a magnolia and sugar nellie swap!! whoo hoo, ***big surprise there too cos the 2 groups i was in were waiting for ***some images to arrive with the host and i didnt even know they ***were posted, thanks Denise, hostess with the mostes LOLOL!!

finally.....

2008-01-30T22:48:00.000Z

..... remembered to take picies of some cards!! all the oher batches have been sold/ given without piccies taken ....bah!!

you gotta ignore the glare on some of them cos i had already put the cards in plastic packets before i remembered to take pictures

Happy Birthday - tilda

2008-01-30T22:47:00.000Z

****

valentine - tilda/ edwin

2008-01-30T22:41:00.001Z

*****

valentine - luca

2008-01-30T22:33:00.000Z

valentine - bella

2008-01-30T22:19:00.000Z

this one is straight IRL ... honest!!

MIL update

2008-01-30T02:31:00.000Z

MIL has had to go back into hospital, her legs just aren't healing properly and kept flaring up. We thought they were gonna operate again but they're trying some treatment instead, so she'll be in there for a while now.

stupid brute's actions still being felt

chocs!!

2008-01-17T06:04:00.000Z

Thought i'd share a couple of chocie pics :o)

This was an order for my friends mum, she got some before Christmas and wanted more... but also a bigger order..... yayyy!!

Had a play at making the boxes but couldnt find my scallopies.... used plain circle, think i'll add a layered circle of different colour card, around the peep hole next time.

first piccie is off a couple centres and yummy melted choc.....

Where did the end of 2007 go??!!

2008-01-17T05:49:00.000Z

Whoooaaaa!! only just starting to get back into the swing of things!!

soooooooo busy at the end of the year....

we had a faaby time Chrismas day, and first year of us staying at home. Cooking was fun but scary as Mummy and wayney came over for dinner.
Threw a hissyfit as the boys.. and adj hadnt even tidied up so i cleaned up frontroom while dinner cooked!!
Anyway it all worked out fine and we all had fun Chanta came over too in the evening.

well here's a slide mosaic of a few "just moments" you know, just moments you snap during the day.
** roll your curser over the pics to see more **

2007-12-21T03:07:00.000Z

Just caching up!! I made loads of cards for Christmas with some yummie magnolia stamps but completely forgot to take photo's of them!! I took pics of the last 6 but not great so will have to take picture in daylight.

shopping and running around to do..... Was in the car with adj and the kiddies today when I had one of Those thoughts.... all the hustle and bustle.... people being soooo bad tempered and rushing around... for the time of year when peace came to all mankind, it was not very peaceful at all out there! I think i'll try and be more peaceful myself as it's soooo easy to get caught up with all of he hype and stress.

MIL is doing well, just got court stuff next..... dont know how that's gonna be. How will i be able to look at the brute without reacting? What will the courtroom be like? what lies will we have to listen to? will his solicitor be very harsh with MIL and elbel?? will there be journo's around??

Advent Swap!!

2007-12-03T22:25:00.000Z

Here's the last 3 days pressies!!

yummie charms.

Pretty snowflake socks

Cute chipboard flowers!!

a few thank you cards:

2007-12-03T22:23:00.000Z

magnolia stamps... yumm!!

In the paper!!!

2007-11-29T03:20:00.000Z

humph!!!!!!!!!! so MIL's local paper has "article" about the heighnus brute..... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr so anoyed, cant type properly grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Why do papers have to be so dofus like??? why cant they think about how people will feel instead of being sensationalt and just so STUPID??!!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr i soo want to give the editor a call, DH, MIL, ellbell and gramdma has read the rubbish but I will have to read it first for myself so i have something o complan about to the editor i guess.... just know that it'll make me even crosser than i am now after just hearing about the stupidity of the "journalist"

Journalists were at the house the night and days afterwards but no news was reported but i guess they were waiting to hear the plea the brute gave before going with the story. He has another court appearance on friday...... grrrrrrrrrrr

right i'm gonna have to stop typing and thinking now as i'm getting sooooo angry..... bahhhhhhh

Mummy and Bubble.....

2007-11-25T03:15:00.000Z

Cant stop taking piccies of bubble!! took some of us together... It was hard getting them so that we were both in the piccie properly and not half a head LOLOL, suppose i could of asked someone else to do it!!

Bubblerooooo!!

2007-11-21T19:33:00.000Z

here's more piccies of bubble!!

lighting not too good.

Baby Power!!

hmmmmm.....

Touch!!

update.

2007-11-21T18:30:00.000Z

Haven't updated for a while, been feeling so blah i didn't want to write anything done.

MIL had to go into hospital again :o( her legs arent healing properly and new antibiotics needed to be given.

The brute had his plea date and pleaded NOT guilty!!! what a complete and utter worm.... cant even be a man and own up to his actions. wont write too much about it for legal reasons as i know he has internet access or someone he knows is doing stuff for him grrrrrrrrrrr.

My emotions are all over the place still, trying to get past this hill....

Bubbleicious!!!

2007-11-03T15:39:00.000Z

Here's bubble at 1 week old!!

hmmm whats over there??

Edwin(magnolia) cheeks:

What a night!!

2007-11-03T15:17:00.000Z

**look away if talk of breast feeding aint your thing!!**

Poor bubble!! he had such a rough night. the formula doesnt agree with him at all!!
he was sick and groaney from 3am and didnt want to lie down. I had to sleep with him upright on my chest, my hips and legs finally said no more. He had another feed at 9.30ish and was sick again... he looked so sad but no fever, also the milk was undigested so....i called GP.... what dya know?? they were closed!!! BAH!!!
phoned m/wife and she basicaly told me br/milk with co-codamol was better for him than formula :o(
Gave him a br/feed at 10.30ish and he slept fine and no sick!! finally got to lie him down. poor love.
sooooooo, no more formula..... dh not to happy as he loved being able to feed him so i will express.
I had to dig out the old pump while formula feeding as it got so painful and i didnt want milk to stop!! i expressed a whole bottle at a time!! never managed that before!! hopefully it will continue like this.

wonder if there's such thing as "gentle" formula?

Thank God for Codeine!!

2007-10-31T21:17:00.000Z

Been in so much pain last few days been using just paracetamol which really didn't touch the pain. Wonderful midwife came today and told me to ge on to my gp and get stronger meds being asthmatic there's not much I can take she told me i could take codeine.
Didnt get to call gp but called Morrisons pharmacy and they had some co-codymol!! took some at about 9pm and wow!! I feel so much better, not totaly painfree but soooo much better.
Only thing is while taking these i cant breastfeed so bubble gets a bottle and mummy has less pain.

Anniversary!!

2007-10-28T16:58:00.000Z

yesturday was our anniversary!!

6 years married!! seems like just the other day i was making all the preperations LOL.

we've been together for 11 years and it's so funny how we've grown together.

happy anniv my lovely and silly hubby xxx

bibble, bobble..... BUBBLE!!!!!!

2007-10-26T20:04:00.000+01:00

Whooo hoooo!! bubble's here and ....................

He's a BOY!!!!!

LOLOLOL another boy!! no pink shopping for me, and no more oestrogeon in the house..... tetesterone all the way.

Wha a dash to the hospital it was too!!

I went to the toilet at something to 2pm and had these odd pains.... then they became worse. I quickl had a wash and combed my hair... went to my bedroom to get my hair gel but another contraction made me jump onto the bed!! Adj said "That's it... we need to go to the hospital" i went downstairs to get dressed but he pains were coming so close together I had to keep stopping, and jumping backwards onto the computer chair!

finaly got ready and went to the car, put a mat under me just in case and we set off.

On the way a group of people decided to cross the road, in the middle of the street... no crossings and stupid cow got cross because adj kep driving.. poor love had me groaning in his ear and knew baby was on way, so anyway this gallah then throws something on our windscreen..... sooooo no what you need when you're in labour, kiddies in he back asking you if you're sick.....

Adj had called my mum to meet us at the hospital as I knew we didn't have time to get her on the way.

When we arrived at he hosp i felt like it was time to push so I told the receptionist, there was a midwife there and she asked if it was my first baby, when i told her it was my 4th, you ahould have seen her face!! she quickly broke of her convo and told me to come with her, we went through to the labour ward and she asked if a room was available, she was told "NO" "It's a fourth baby" she said... "room 5!!!" came the reply LOLOLOL,

So any way I got into the room and hollered, so the love gave me some gas and air...... for the first time ever, I used it effectively..... now i know they tell you to breathe it in when you feel the contraction coming and then stop when it's over, but I just kept breathing in and out and when i felt odd... i jus kept on..... this helped the pain much more than i ever has.
I had prayed for the last few weeks for a managable and easy labour, I got myself in such a state over it and had disscussion about epidural with anethesist and just didnt know what to do. I didnt really want to have an epidural but i sooo didnt want the pain.
I have to say although I didnt stick to my side of the bargain, God stuck to his and the labour was the best ever!! 15mins after I arrived at the hosp Bubble was born!!!

The only scary bit was the after bit...... I lost 600ml of blood and it wasnt stopping so injection....... drip....... massaging...... stirups.... lights ..... poking........ pulling...... placing stuff places and threats of having to go to theatre... pryayers...... things started to get better.
Adj had to run back home while the drip was running through as i had left a whole load of stuff including my nightshirts, dressing gown, toothbrush and paste, hair stuff and loads more... oh and nappies, we were in such a rush to leave the house.

Felt dizzy in the shower and my mum came in room with me... slightly embarassing but very reasuring having her there..... never to old to have a bit of mothering!!

soooooooooo........ Back home with lovely cute baby!!!

International Visitors!!

2007-10-18T00:56:00.000+01:00

WOWWW!! I put a new dodah on the blog that records visitors by their countries (saw it on the lovely Anso's scrummy blog) and I just saw that I have had visits from Australia, Finland and Sweeden!!

How fab is that??

A big Hi!!! to you xxx

LLlllllloooooooooong weekend!!

2007-10-17T23:49:00.000+01:00

What a lonnnggggg weekend I've had.

Sunday was an appreciation day for our Pastor and Elder at church.

Tuesday we went to the funeral of a good friend's mum. She's taking it really hard. The funeral was 260 miles there and back so we were very tired!!

Today we drove up to see MIL i was a really nice visit, she's getting on so well.
The only thing that was bad was when she was in pain, I need to by her a timer so that she can remember when it's time to take her pain meds.
I finally gave her a kiss!! I've been so scared that i may hurt her and have been just sort of saying bye and scarpering but today she called me as I was gonna go and said bye again so I went in and gave her a kiss on her cheek and she rubbed/patted bubble!! I was grining from ear to ear LOLOL, I've wanted to do that since the very night all this started.... I know it sounds all girly and pink but I dont care heeeeeee and anyway.... whats wrong with being girly and pink?? better than how i've been feeling last couple of days.... all prickly and cranky.

Got to play with my Tilda's - well the two that I rescued from the pick up truck.... still can't find bunny tilda.
I am so impressed with the quality of the rubber!! I take back my misgivings, the image is so clear and i love the whatever you call it stuff that sticks the stamp to the acrylic block.... i thought it would be sticky and when i peeled a little back it was slick but got advice that it's exactly what it was meant to be like - silly me LOLOL - weeeeeellllll, I love it and think i'll try and track some down to put on my bella's.... think that will make them more "cushie"
soooo anyway, I stamped and coloured two in to try out my pencils and the glaze pen and water technique i saw on c&c.
I love the water and glaze pens.... just fab.. pencils were yummy too and I can see a new addiction comming on LOLOL
Will make two cards to mount them on and post piccies.

MIL Update.

2007-10-12T14:48:00.000+01:00

MIL is sill going from strength to strength. This stinky cold means I havent been able to visit here tho booooooo!!!

She's going to the house at the w/e o show adj what she wants to keep and what she wants throwing out, then adj ad his friend can pack a few things up.
I'm wondering what it will be like for her going to the house :o(
dont think I could do it myself... I havent been here since i happened, been outside in car but no gone in and i wasnt even me that it happened to.

Missing Tilda!!

2007-10-12T14:42:00.000+01:00

Wahhhhhh!! my bunny suit tilda is lost....... last seen?? in the back of the kiddies pick up truck....
all three tildas were tilda jacked by kylo and silly mummy thought... hmmm I'll go get them later, now I only see two of them and the bunny suit one is lost!!! wahhhhhhh!!

Bubble is getting so heavy, all he movements are soooo hard. I'm still worrying about the slightly large head..... you know where that's gotta escape from (ahem)

Got appt on Mon with consultant and then with anesathist(bad sp) I think I have another water infection so will let doc know then.

Got sooooo many things I want to do craft wise but no time and i MUST carry on the house blitz or Bubble will be lost amongst the junk... er i mean prize possesions ;o)

Tilda's Here!!

2007-10-01T15:53:00.000+01:00

My magnollia stamps have finally arrived!! Nearly a whole month after I ordered them!!

I was gonna do a paypal reverse thingy as I thought they weren't comming.

Sooooo happy to have them as i love the rabbit suit tilda, also got the petticoat one and the tilda with cake.
I cant believe how hooked I am on these tilda's!! I have a few on pre-order with uk suppliers and cant wait till they come... magnollia take ages with orders tho so may be a while yet.

only thing about these are that they're not cut very neatly... ah well will have a quick go over with my small scissors.

The stamps arent as high a quality as i thought, but I have seen some fab creations with them so i'm sure they're fine. Cant wait to have a play!!

Fabby Visit

2007-10-01T15:41:00.000+01:00

We all went to see MIL yesturday.
Was the first time the kids have seen her and we were a little anxious as to how they'd react but each one reacted in exactly the way we thought.
They were just fab and Kali had a lovely cuddle with MIL. He was so happy I melted and just felt like blubbering.
Jayz just looked for a while and took everything in - he and kylo had just woken up so they were a little miserable and spaced anyway. MIL asked him if it was still her and he said yes.... how sweet is that?
Kylo was just the same as usual and stared and smilled from afar. They both soon warmed up and were hoping and jumping and skipping around the place as usual.

I totally didnt say everything I wanted to say to MIL, I just couldnt form the words. I just wanted to hug her but didnt, i just dont want to hurt her.

She was walking around and everything, she is just soooooo amazingly fab!! her hands looked so good, the colour in her fingers are comming along nicely and she can move them much more.

She was in pain in the evening which was horrible, I think she was a little upset when we were going too.

I had a little blubber when i went to bed. I thought I'd come to terms with all this but I havent really. I am just so PO'd that this has happened, I am so sad and when i close my eyes when she's talking, I see her like before.....

I soooo want bubble to be a girl for her, she'd love a granddaughter.

Show Time!!

2007-10-01T15:23:00.000+01:00

Ally Pally was fab on Saturday, lots of yummies and lovely crafters all around.

Didnt get a chance to do my normal walk for ages round and round and browsing fave stalls at least three times LOLOL, bubble is sooooo big now and seems to get a nark on if i'm walking about.
Decided that I'd go round once and go to the stalls i really wanted to get something from, made lists and had to stick to it, was a shame in a way cos i just know there was some great stalls/stores there but just couldnt do it. Didnt get a chance to go into CTM as it was jampacked and i couldnt risk getting jabbed or pushed.

I did manage to get the sizzix dies i was after except for the bigz frame, from craft bug.
The bejewler from banana frog - and a couple of the chrystal packs.
Finally got the BIA!! I wanted it for months but with all the stuff needed for bubble, i had to leave it, Scrap Revolution had it for a fantaby price - nearly £20 cheaper than another stall had it for!! so snagged one and a wire pack.
Sugar and Spice had some sweet acrylic albums, the exact paper i had dreamed of for some invites and quickie glue ooo and Oct creating keepsakes too.

got some knick knacks from a couple other stalls and then my time was up. Sat down in the lobby and had a slurp of Pepsi Max - shhhhhh dont let diet coke know i'm a traitor!!
Adj came to get me, the sweetie, he didnt want me to go cos he knows how achy I get and with my BP being high and all. But I promised i'd only do a small walk round. He was off out for a stag day and so i was on a time restriction anyway which helped sway him.

I was sooooooo tired after, I treated bubble to some mash potato and mackrel (sounds yuck but was scrummy) and had a snooze!!

High light was seeing Juju aka Julie, she gave me a lovely big hug and it was just so nice to see her irl again. Saw karren too which was nice.

My purchases are still im my case... gonna have a play later.

Home sweet Home!!

2007-09-25T03:08:00.000+01:00

MIL has been discharged rom hospital!! How fab is that?? More imprtantly, how fab is SHE??!!

Adj went to see her today and came back quite happy. He was soooo down last week and yesturday was a bad day for him :o(

MIL has a test later this week to check the status of the MRSA, she wants me to wait till she has the test before I go to see her. Cant wait to see her tho as it's been a few weeks.
She's getting on well and is progressing good. She has a carer to change the bandages and to help her wash etc.

The monster is still holding on to his lies!! Cant be a man even now. I just hope justice is done.

Happines turns to sadness.....

2007-09-15T02:17:00.000+01:00

...... and anxiety...... and sorrow...... and fear......

just found out that MIL has MRSA, what are we gonna do know? How is this gonna affect her, and Adj and even bubble.
What is the seriousness of her infecion? Is it treatable? all these questions..... no answers yet.

Adj was so sad when he collected me from my mummy's house. I just knew something was wrong, he was just so down looking. My mummy asked him how his visit went as he'd been to see MIL on her "home" visit..... he just made a so so face and action with his hands, Mummy and I just looked at each other, I told him to get Kylo but he said me or kali would have to carry him... that in itself seemed odd to us as he always carried him to the car, esp now i'm so achy.... He told me the news when we got in the car and told me he needed to wash etc. Because of the risks, and so he didnt want to be close to Kylo.
When we got home i just stayed in the car while they went inside and just cried..... why this? why??

How do we all bounce back from this?

Today I had youth meeting and was teaching the kids a song to sing on Sunday, it's by Kirk Franklin and it has the line "He'll never put more on me than I can bear"
was practicing it all afternoon in preperation for the meeting, going through the lyrics and arangement and the harmonies...... Now it seems like it was a pre comfort that I needed for now.

MIL update!!

2007-09-09T02:04:00.000+01:00

Arrrggggg!!! am soooooooo stoked!! Adj's grandma phoned with an update!! Mil got up and walked by herself, got in her chair by herelf and went to the bathroom by HERSELF!! how great is that?? How amazing is she??!!
The hosp is so pleased with her she will be going on a day visit "home" next week!!! - not to her home obviously but somewhere else(cant say where for security) to see how she gets on and if all goes well, she will be looking at a discharge date real soon!!!
I can hardly believe it, I had no expectation of her leaving hosp so soon! She had told adj that she wanted to be at work by Christmas and we were thinking he'd be in hosp still at christmas!!

Even tho I prayed for a miracle I cant quite fathom this at all!! How great is this?? God is good :O)

Monster has to apear in court this month. Police want MIL to do a video statement. Not too clued up on legal stuff so not sure if this date is just a hearing in order to see what the plea is, will find out from adj when he has a chat with liason offficer.

Bubblelictious!!

2007-09-09T01:14:00.000+01:00

Got to see Bubble in a scan on Friday!!
Went to see if he/she was growing properly(i.e not too big) and if the position was ok... was breech at 30wks.
Growth is fine (so neeeerrrrr consulants!! just cos i'm a fatty dont mean my baby will be mega huge - my last 3 were "normal" so why cant this one be???)
And bubble is head down!! whoooo hoooo (must be why i can feel all this presure "down there")

Scanner lady was supa nice. She let Adj, jayz and kylo have a looksie. Adj had to go park the car and i had to go in, she'd finished the scan when they came and she told me to hop back on the bed and let them have a looksie. So nice of her.

SO pleased that bubble isnt breech anymore, scanner lady said babies can still turn from now till birth but hopefully bubble will stay put :o)

A Big Thank You!!

2007-08-22T16:29:00.000+01:00

Tracey you wonderful and kind lovey!! I got your package!!

Tracey sent a card for MIL but she also sent me a card and some bump treats!! Such a lovely thing to do and I just want to say a great big THANKS xxx

One Tuff Cookie!!

2007-08-22T16:02:00.000+01:00

I got to see my MIL yesturday!! I was so scared that I'd be a mess or wouldnt be strong and was worried that i wouldn't know what to say to her.
Adj's Grandma was there so i waited in the day room while adj went in, I was a little nervous and wondering if I should have came but then it was my turn to go in, I didnt want to look at her in case my face and tears betrayed me, so I just said hello and then looked down. I looked around the room and then thought this is rediculous(sp!!) and I just took a breath and looked!! I was upset but held it in well and just talked.
She is just her, as funny and feisty as usual!! She made me laugh and I made her laugh, Adj was just great.
We had to go through bills and letters and stuff.
I am so hurt by her injuries and she was in so much pain, but under all the burn she's still her, her eyes and her nose is her, her laugh, her personality.

I was glad that I went and amazed at her strengh!! I am so sadened that she has had to go through all of this.

I'm still having bad dreams about him who shall remain without a name.

Cant wait to see her again!!

one step forward...... one step back.

2007-08-16T11:28:00.000+01:00

MIL has had to be put back into the ITU :o(
She was given another graft but her face swellled really badly and so they put her back in ITU to keep a close eye on here and to give more care.

I'm wondering why they did another graft now, why didnt they wait til the infection had been gone for a while?

Ah well... they're the medics and know what their doing..... just a little diheartning that's all.

Preperation for the youth convention are going well!! Will decorate jars and toiletries oo and make gift bags for the prizes later after Choir practice, also got group practice so will be a late one....

Blaahhhhh

2007-08-13T16:34:00.000+01:00

todays a blah day, I'm just feeling so depresed, I was meant to go to the bank to sort out a few stuff but i just havent got the energy, I feel like i'm in a hole but i need to get out of it... I've got too much to do and too many people depending on me.
I need to do something to take my mind of all this and just stop SNAPPING!!

I have the youth conference to organise which is thi weekend and cos of all the oings on i havent really put all i wanted into it so starting from right NOW i'm gonna leave my pity party and get my butt to work!!

MIL was doing well when adj went to see her, he came back so sad tho, he's finding all this just so hard and my heart breaks for him, he just is broken and trying to come to term with everything and he find it hard that MIL kept so much from him.

He is on auto pilot at the moment and i'm trying so hard not to let my hormonal rants and moods affect him, but instead, my darling boys get it all. :o(

Lost!!

2007-08-11T14:29:00.000+01:00

I am lost.... I dont know how to feel, what to think. I try to get on with life, with everyday stuff but I am just lost.

My mind is so full of so many thoughts, emotions and feelings.... too many to work out, to put into words even.

Last night i had a horrible dream where the heinious man... cant call him anything but a monster - was in it... it seemed so real even his injuries which although i havent seen in real life, looked real. It was horrible.

I keep thinking he's gonna get out of custody and come over here....

adj is so down and so sad, he feel that the monster has taken everything away from her and he feels it for his bro and nan. He went to see MIL today, cant wait til he comes back so i can see how she is.

I've been tagged!!

2007-08-09T16:33:00.000+01:00

The fabby Flapsi has tagged me!! thanks so much hun, deff made me smile and gave me a shiney!! You deff rock xxx

I had a hard time thinking about who to tag a I read so many great blogs and the author certainly rock.... many are already tagged with this award which just proves i'm right... aren't women always right? LOL

OK, so i tag:

Jemm, Jules, Heather, Ali, and Polly.

Happy Birthday Jayz!!

2007-08-08T20:21:00.001+01:00

My baby is 4 !!!
4 !!?? I cant believe I had him 4 years ago... seems like yesturday :o)

I had planned to have a birthday party for him but with all thats gone on, it didnt feel right at all.
We went out to toysrus and then Pizza hut for his b'day treat cos we feel that MIL's improvement is good and we should let Jayz and the boys have a nice day. It was really nice and the boys were so well behaved.
Jayz is in a funny mood today, he seems a little sad but toys rus really cheered him up LOL!!

I'll post pics later or tomo.

MIL update...

2007-08-08T20:00:00.000+01:00

Adj couldnt go up to see her today cos SHe was sedated again.... apparently, she's having her sedated dressing change and wash everyday... EVERYDAY!!! How painful is that?? She had a high temperature yesturday and so the doctor thinks infection may be the cause so the dressings need to be changed daily.
My heart aches for her but whatever they have to do for her to get better then thats what matters.

The monster - I cant even mention his name - has now been discharged from hospital adn is in police custudy... cant say much more cos of stupid legal reasons... why is it always the badies that get protected??

On a high note, MIL has been moved out of intensive care!! how good is that?? fantastic!!
She's been moved into rehabilitation!!

Scrappin'!!

2007-08-08T19:47:00.000+01:00

I finally got to play with my lollypop alpha!! I used mounboard, chalk ink (how yummy are those cats eyes??) and glitter!! I also got to try out the Swirl thick cut die!! so glad i got it now as i love the swirls!! They can be used as those paper clips you can get too!! Think i'll get some metal sheeting next week and see how I go.

The card making got me out of my craft ban and i just had to do a scrap page. I had the photo printed off for ages but since I wanted to use the glitter alpha and swirls i made, i wanted it to be quiter plain so that lead me to a challenge I've been thinking about for Scrapstars!!

A Lo with cardstock only - no PP!! and handmade embellies only!! ooo bet they'll moan as they wont be able to use their beloved Basic grey... LOLOL you I love you guys XxX

The page is very plain but I think i like it:

Cards....

2007-08-08T19:41:00.000+01:00

Here's the pics i promised of the cards!!

I crafted!!!

2007-08-05T23:16:00.000+01:00

whhhoooo i finally lifted my "ban" and made the two b'day cards!!
It was so relaxing and I felt quite soothed, just doing something that I enjoy feels so wrong but i really needed it and I'm glad I did cos the kids were much more relaxed too, they know every emotion I feel... they are so clued up its scary, I try to put on a front but they know when I'm not.

Adj wasnt able to chat to MIL cos she was coming out of sedation after her wash.
It breaks my heart to think how much pain she's in that she needs to be sedated just to have a wash, something that I ake for granted... something that I didnt even think about. They have to take off her bandages, remove the dressing, and then wash... I am now getting angry again, the one act of sheer wickedness just keeps on hurting her... even though the act is already done.

I am so peeoo'd right now but I will NOT let him win, I WILLL be strong and WE will get over all of this.

I'll post photo's of the cards tomo.

Looking Up

2007-08-04T12:38:00.000+01:00

Things are looking up and I am soooooooooooooooo amazed by this miracle.
MIL was nearly taken from us and here she is asking for a cuppa!! LOL

Adj is just ecstatic!! SHe asked for some yogurt when he was there on Thursday and she had 2spoons!! She had only had water before that and that made her choke. MIL took a few steps with the help of the nurse..... As Adj was telling me all this i was just buzzing and couldn't beleive it!! I know we've got a long road ahead of us but this is just so amazing.

I want to go see her but i dont know if i will be strong..... I need to be strong for her.

I went to the PO yesturday, I went to a few shops too as i needed some tops... my bump is getting sooo big also some underwear... big pants ahoy!!!
I picked up some grocceries while i was there and it was the first time i've been to the shops since it happened that I felt happy to be shopping.

my mind cant process all these emotions and i feel so out of sorts, ill and tired but I just wan to get over this first hurdle and I know i'll be ok.

I want to craft but I cant, I need to make a couple of cards so i'll hopefully just put all the negative thoughts aside and do them.....

why didn't I talk??

2007-07-31T22:42:00.000+01:00

MIL is AWAKE!!!!!!!

Adj got the phone call this afternoon and we just got ready and went up there.

I wont go into all the details as we've had to make new security measures but I just feel so stupid cos i didnt talk much to her. I said two things and just stood there looking around like a muppet!!

I didnt know what to say, I was just so sad and upset and it hurt to see her like that.
My anger frightens me.... When i see her, all I can think is how can someone leave someone in that possition, in that pain??!!

I wish I talked.

stupid blogger.... well me really

2007-07-30T16:31:00.000+01:00

Only gone and changed my template without meaning to!! Bah, wasnt concentrating and now its all blah!!

cant even bother to sort it out now, will do some time later, so excuse the blahness for now

what a night.

2007-07-30T14:55:00.000+01:00

Had a really hard night.

I went to see MIL yesturday and it was just terrible but also very needed.
I had to put on apron and scrub hands in a small room and then went into her room. Adj introduced me to the doc/nurse on duty - each patient in the burns itu has a doc/nurse all day, everyday, every second and they cant leave - I took a look over and then just crumbled. I had to leave the room and I rushed to he family room where i just fell apart.
MIL's best friend was here and held me in her arms, Ellbell was there and was comforting me but i wanted to be the strong one for him. I just dont know how someone can do that to someone, to leave them like that.

I had to go back in the room, I just needed to be in there, to be with her so I went to the bathroom and came back and scrubbed back up and went in. I just sat down and stared at the floor. I then looked around the room, there's all pictures of her in there and it's just so soul destroying looking a the pictures and then at the bed.... I took a good look at my sweet, kind MIL, I just dont know what to say, there's no words. All the machines and all the tubes and then her, laying there, sedated, dressings on her face (I thought it was her face at first) the ventilator breathing for her and her chest rising.
I am just so sorry this happened to her, so sorry she is like this now but determined that the monster who did it WONT win.

We went to church in the evening and my cuz played a song for Adj and myself - He'll take the pain away - so touching and so emotional. I was in bitz, one of my good church friends came to me and wrapped me in her arms and just cried.
We were called to the front for a special prayer and Adj and te kids went up, I tried to get up but only made it to the end of my row and just had to sit down again, another of my good friends hugged me and an usher took me to the front. My church momma was there waiting and i just collapsed in her arms and slunk to my knees. Everyone was in tears as we are all so close and they just cant beleive what's gone on.
After I went back to my seat, the service continued but it was so special and it was so good to be there. God was really in the house and comforted us all.

I am so overwhelmed by the love shown to Adj myself by our friends, family, church family and my online communities.
There's really special people in this world which gives us faith in people after our faith in humans has been totally shaken. I refuse to let the hideous actions of one sick and twisted indivitual make me become tottaly untrusting of other people who have and continue to show compassion.

just here

2007-07-27T15:26:00.000+01:00

Just here, adj has gone to the Hosp and left me here, he says he's not gonna stay long up there so i shouldnt get childcare. He's also has to bring his mums work keys to her workplace and go to his Grandma's as one of his uncle's is taking the news very badly and needs to see a doctor, the poor guy.
I think he wants to sheild me but instead i jus feel so alone and so useless. I know it's silly to feel like this and maybe it's best for me and bubble but I just want to do something, but i'm here making wetabix for jayz and kylo (they have a love for cereal at anytime like me LOL ) and crying. Kids are up stairs and kylo wants to come down. I started tidying the lounge last night and will do some more. At least I'll be doing something, my back wont take much tho.

Thanks so much for all the lovey and kind messages, comments and posts people have sent me. Means so much.

Why?? How??

2007-07-25T16:25:00.000+01:00

Why would someone be so evil?
How could someone do such a thing and inflict so much pain to another human being and more so to the one you have chosen to spend your life with?

My darling, beautiful MIL was savagely attacked by her husband on monday, I cant really write all the details here as people who are very sensitive and even children may read this blog and also legally I'm not sure what I can and cant say.

The absolute animal has caused her to have burns from waist up front and back. He did such an awful, disgusting, attrocious thing..... I still cant believe what he's done.

She is in a specialist Burns hospital and he is in a hospital under police guard as he has been arrested with attempted murder.

Adj is in bitz, EllBell(his little bro.) is too, Ellbell saw his mum at the time and had to put the flames out and administer first aid etc.... what can the poor guy be going through. He's staying with us a the moment and he hasnt eaten properly since monday.
I had to hold him in my arms on tues morning and put him to bed on our sofa, I feel for him I really do.

I am just devestated, My emotions go from angry to sadness to hurt to anxious to worried to pain to grief to hate...... and all diff emotions between.

I have seen life in a different view, things that I have held so important mean absolutely nothing.... arguements are pointless.
Here I was moaning that my hair is breaking and so getting short and comming away when I put my hands through it and now my MIL has no hair as the surgeons had to cut/shave it off.

CRASH BANG WALLOP!!

2007-07-22T13:03:00.000+01:00

Yesturday, some stupid woman decided it would be a good idea to look in her bag while driving!
Adj was waiting to turn down a road, on coming traffic was flowwing so he was waiting for a gap, then BANG, Poor kylo and jayz woke up and were startled... kali was right in the back as we had a friend with us so he was closest to the collision.
Stupid, stupid woman!! She just sat in her car looking shocked then got out, adj myself and our friend went over and she just stared in our faces, It was right at a bus stop so people were looking on too..... ARRRGGG I was mad!! She got her phone out and i assumed she was calling the police. I took photo's of both our cars for Insurance purposes, she got of the phone and said "What shall we do, shall we phone the police?"
SO I said "wasn't you phoning them?"
"No" she replied "because I didnt know the number, is it 999?" WHAT!!?? is this woman for real is all i could ask myself, my friend and I just looked at each other in amazement.
Adj must have seen the smoke coming out of my ears and so he sent me to the car LOL.
I was in there for a while and the woman comes over I really didnt want to talk to her as I was fumming but she knocked on the window, I opend the window and she was saying sorry, sorry.... I said "I've got 3 kids in her, and a baby coming, what were you thinking off??"
She then told me she was looking in her BAG!!! I was just soooooo mad, She put our life at risk because she was looking in her bag, I knew she hadnt been watching, cos we were stationary and waiting for a fair few minutes and were on a stretch of road, so she just plain couldnt have been watching!!

Went for a check up much later as my back was really aching and I wanted to make sure Bubble was ok,
Nurse over reacted when she prodded my neck which obviously hurt and tols me they needed to strap me down!! and isolate my neck.... I told her my neck wasnt hurting it was my back.... did she listen??? NO!! so she took me through to the back and a doc came out, He asked me what happened then asked me what speed we were going, i told him we were stationary and then he asks me what speed woman was going??? Like I knew... The silly man wouldnt take the fact that i didnt know and asked was i 100 miles er hour...... why are docs so patronising..... so i said to him" I have a picture of her car... maybe YOu can tell the speed from that??" He then changed his une and said, "Oh no nevermind, thats ok" PHLUUFFFF!!!
He then proded me and decided i wasnt suffering from broken neck or whatever it was the nurse had written and so we all went back out to waiting room................ for HOURS!! BAHHHHH. Adj and Kali fell asleep and Jayz and Kylo were over tired, Jayz kept running around, fidgeting, jumping etc. Kylo Fidgeting, crying and in the end Adj took them to the car so they could sleep.
Finally I was called in and gladly it was a diff doc, she asked what happened and asked if I was asthmatic, as I was wheezy, I told her I was and she listenend to my chest and back... tight!! so she told me I needed a nebuliser, She prodded my back and I nearly jumped of the bed/couch!! OUCHHHHHH....

Well if you've reached up to here, thanks for reading LOLOL, I'm all achy and Chest is a little "wet" from nebuliser but Bubble is ok. The car can be fixed a the end of the day ad we are all ok so thats what matters..... so frustrating but hey.... we're alive.

Got in around 3am so we're not going to church for afernoon service, we'll go to the evening one.

Photo.

2007-07-20T15:26:00.000+01:00

Here's the photo I promised :o)

The challenge was:
1 pic, doodling, lime green somewhere and some brads

Was a real challenge esp. as i hate green LOLOL, The green paper and puffly alpha (ME) was from a scrap room kit and the doodlebug swirl paper was from my CTM kit.
dymo label (just)
whie pen is the white glaze by sakura.

success!!

2007-07-20T13:27:00.000+01:00

LOL!!
Got the challenge lo done, and before choir practice too.
I'll post a photo later on, my phone is charging.

What a rainy, thundery afternoon!! Looks abit brighter now tho.

Hoping to finally have a play with my lollipop alpha with mountboard, Got some plates for my Big Shot at last - well I got the Big Kick ones as the store were out of the BS ones... am 99.5% sure they'll fit.

Speed Scrap!!!

2007-07-19T16:59:00.000+01:00

Right, been procastronating---hmm cant spell it---- all afternoon, had my 2nd challenge page planned ages ago, printer went kaput so couldnt print photos but now we have a new one yayyyy!! got it yesturday reduced by £40!!
So printed of photo last night but now i'm just fraffing around and not scrapping..... sooooo I think I'll challenge myself to speed scrap! I have the bits already waiting for me, just got to cut, place and stick sooooooo what am i waiting for?? Will give the kidies some punchies and paper and do my page...... See you on the other side LOL.

Hummmph!!

2007-07-19T16:56:00.000+01:00

After trying to push the headaches, flashing lights, occasional swelling etc and the rest... I am showing protein now....... I am just trying to stay positive, CANNOT go through all the pre-eclampsia hooohaaa that I had the last two times with Jayz and Kylo.... HUMMMMPPPHHHH!!!